I’m feeling incredibly depressed still this evening, although today wasn’t too bad. Well, after thinking about what I wrote yesterday I decided that actually sometimes you need to have people you can relate to and so somebody who is or who has suffered depression can empathise better than most. In fact sometimes cheerful, happy people can feel like having salt rubbed into a wound. The ‘Woe is me, why me feeling?’ encourages feelings of ‘Why them, how come they get to be happy’, when in a more irritable frame of mind. So basically what I said previously now feels like it was a sweeping statement at best and utter BS at worst. Is it showing how indecisive and how little self awareness I have at the moment? I’m hoping that is in some way entertaining or at least interesting to some. Isn’t entertainment a strange concept these days? The world of reality TV. Here’s a little of my reality life, which I find somehow cathartic to share. I want to feel free to be me whatever that happens to be at any particular time. There, that is something to feel good about. At least I have no shame and why should I? We all experience the same emotions, why be ashamed of any of them? Some can just be extreme and overwhelming but that’s when we need to reach out to each other. I’m such an idealist but I have to try and hang on to that, the other option for me is to the other extreme and it’s all doom and gloom. The wonderful world of extreme emotion, a bit like extreme sport perhaps. How I am rambling this evening. I’d love to know how this is perceived, without too much cruelty of course. Looking forward to more stable days
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